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This is the story that goes on & on...

2007-11-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

ThE brand new loOk, tHe BraNd new Me???

It's Dar Dar bdae... went to marriott hotel for buffet wit dar dar... i sweared the buffet was awesome! As usUal desseRts are always my all time faves but did not eat much last nitE...

Am tinking of applying the marriott gold member card entitle to lots of discount buUut tis will give mi an0ther reason t0 eat m0re... Can't afford to get fatter anymore *_* hee

Taken sum pix waiting dar to upload it. . .

Am so excited of my new home... Leng told me gotta wait about 4 months to move in... I am oreadi thinking of decorating my room kaka got to go ikea for some inspiration... WheE I always dream of having a corner of my own & luv ones... Evrything seems so sweEt w/o any interference jus world of 2 of us...

Moi 22nd BdaE

2007-05-14T15:16:00.000+08:00

WoohoOo... i'm not been forgotten by my frens kaka =b super hapPy they r there with me to celebrate my bdae so toUchie lol i tot no 1 would haf bother abt it...

9th May 2007

It's Pr|ncesS Day!!! haha
I went JB to celebrate my Bday with Jun siong, Shane & PaPa kind of cheapo rite but bo pian no $$ go dere enjoy 50% off lol... We had our feast at japaness restuarant tebrau city so yummy but den wasn't gd appetite recently din't manage to finish my portion. But i swear the lobster thingy w mango is OISHI!!!

Birthdae feast pix

After meal we went to Thai odessey for massage for 1hr which is NOT ENUFF... Hasn't been realli slping well only when massage i can get gd zZz & i think i even snoore *malu Everything was so tight but i manage to do a quick shopping spree b/4 hopping in KTV cum buffet till 12+ i guess it's was the latest time i ever went back fr jb luckily we manage to get the last bus to custom if not we gonna walk

Nt showing off hw big my f00tsize got it's bdae's gift *Blink Blink* de k
Sponsored by AMBUSH staff ^_^

8th may 2007
met up my collegues; cheryl, shane, leong, leonard & colin to watch spiderman 3 tot was jus a casual gathering din expect they came with bdae cakes so sweEt yet embrassing cos we cut our cake at west coast mac kind of like kiddie celebrating over dere after movie lol aniwae i appreciate it thks to gay boy who suggested out. ;\

Some ThouGhts of the day...

Everything back to square again... no doubt on tis phrase, I 've lived, i've loved and i've lost. lol Again i'm not trying to be emo in this stage, I think these 5 yrs of relationship really makes me a stronger person towards everything... Infact i'm quite surprise hey i mean 5yrs of relationship broken up yet shred no tears. *clap clap* But i feel that our loves for each other has not been growing long ago yet i'm always the 1 who wanna withstand it, did things for him & give in.

I knew it's sounds real stoopid to my surrounding people. Even his family encouraged me to leave him, cos they noe he's gt no commitment in tis r/s. And again, i'm like a block of brick didn't know hw to stop all these and happily waiting he will change just a matter of time.

He always broke up with me with no clear reason, this time he nv fail again. he really act like jerk or even he is 1 of them, just dump me whenever he likes & says things like tis r/s is pointless & full stop! i just hate his ways of ending a relationship doesn't he feel he sorry me for this while yet short period he easily patch back with his ex-gf?

But thks god he dump me now, i wouldn't want to have such guy with my rest of my life!

BeE & DeE 12...

2004-11-29T09:21:00.000+08:00

m0rning madnEss... i waited cab at 755am, it was 815 i still haven got up the cab... ppl are cutting que... finally there's a cab for me a guy pop out & hire the cab... wat a ass man... i dailed a cab in the end, i got up cabbie at 735am... zzZz i shud haf taken MRT haiz~

Andrew's birThdae was like many things happen... we were at fondre & all of the sudden elda disappeared i thou she was in the ladies until zhiwan said she's went back... & i know something's wrong... BeE asked mE wat did i said to elda abt ah girl... its jus a casual discussion... i dun0 why those guys s0 pr0tective over her... BeE said she was like a "guy" to them~~ so tat "guy" can replace us?

after fondre, we went to Wild... there's was a boring place... we wanted to move off but couldnt find andrew... I step out of wild i saw jie wei andrew & a guy seem like into fight duno quarrell abt wat... BeE was there like middle man for 1hr+ It was 4am den i thou we could go home... BuuuuuuT andrew said he still haven drunk wan to drink more~~~ *pengz* we go to the nearest 7 eleven & andrew go mE a chocolates wahahaha... s0 hapPi~~

BeE & DeE 11....

2004-11-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i Jus went to JB with my dad & her "girlfriend". She wanted to bring her daughter along but i told them i haf 2friends joining us, Des stiLL as b4 s0 undecisive said wanted to go last min chnanges his mind~~ uUrgh... Wei kok found out des n0t g0ing so does he... pengz~

BuT BuT toO bad they didnT g0... We ate lobster & live shun hock (fish) & some other dishes. kakax i shud haf taken down the photos & flash it in blog let me droOl... wahahax

This was like the 1st time i went out with my dad's girlfriend... Was like kinda wierd~ feels like a big lightbulb... I admit she's a chatterbox~ she sometimes tells me funny stuff... she commented his boyfriend got a brilliant idea to make her daughter willingly to marry him by bring her to "sleep" & make her pregnant... when she told me i was like ?????? & feel embarrassed & my dad was besides me... its all abt her daughter's future... & she's still can say its brilliant *pengz* she eagerly wants her daughter to get married & never worry its not an easy thing to start a family easily nowsaday... After the dinner we went to leisure mall sh0pping~ i bought quite a few vcds 1 of them was "shutter" i watched it... its really shuts lor... duno how the cameraman shot it 1/2 way of show its t0tally blank~~ kakax waste my $$$ luckily i get it at buy 5 get 1 free... which was onli rm 25~~

after the shopping i tot we're heading home... My dad drove to a night market street, I tot they jus wanted to walk ar0und den she said want to share penang laksa with her... I felt so bloated she still can eat summore... after all the temptation we decided to eat some dessert kakax i ordered a ice kacang while waiting, my dad ordered char kuey tiao... The table getting more & more foods again... shiT~~ how to slim dowm sia left 33days... i can't beat them so i just join them lolx...

Today's is andrew birD dAy... wondering shud i g0 with beE... I'm suRe its gonna be a Nite~~ sure floW till drop... hahax... hopfulli they dun haf much more money can drink lesser~ ^_^ Its 4:05 & i'm g0nna say Tats all folk!

BeE & DeE 10....

2004-11-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i feel of blogging today, wow the last time i update my blog was 27 oct... tat was so l0ng... Todae my class was like yest onli 1/2 of ppl turn up s0 bore man~~ & today lesson i'm having is freaking basic Science, its not basic at all... all the terms they were saying i was like ????? i have n0 chemistry foundation at all but here's sux all were those bombastic term see lia0 oso giddy~

We shifed our 2nd meeting to library, i can't breathe at there... i was surronded by all thicks ref books~~ so stressed in the end back to class for 3rd meeting lolx... i borroWed "why men lies & women cry" book from library using kaileng cards due date 18 nov.. i'm afraid i might forget to remind her blog it here kakax~

Today gonna be a loOoong day for me... after class got to rush down to cwp for work... There was like "ren jian di yu" I miss IMM staff so much~ At Imm i'm able to slack morE...

& i have 54days to slim down... lolx tats was BeE idea~ he said for his birthdae present is to see me slimming down. whenever he sees me will start critize me FAT arrgh~~~ he'll start comparing the very 1st time he met me & n0w... Last Nite duN even let me have dinNer & junk food kaka but in the end he hide himself in e kitchen coOking yumMy porridge while i was playing maple story. hoW sweEt... lolx but he added to much pepper s0 hot~~~

I still have no idea wat to get for him for his birthade its his 21st birthdae shall make it "big day" for him~~ i've thought of holding a chalet bUut preparing fo0ds & stufF is a big trouble~~ unless i can get someone to help out kakax~ maybe jus celebrate it at the new open SAFRA next to his hse... i tink there's KTV majong roOm all these... g0t to plan outz... keke

2004-10-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

This pix was taken @ kbox during last wed 1/2 of class protested of VB fac didnt turn up in class. Rox rite lolx =b

BeE & DeE 9...

2004-10-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

Jus manage to rush my RJ on time... Todae class i guess was the worst of Ts0207a had attend... NevEr met a Fac so powEr can make the whole class Shitting abt him~ haha But we guys & gals had a fun time telling him off~~ i Miss Mr Ng & the slacking time we all had hee heez~ He's the best nahx whole class wanted him back s0 muCh...

I told myself seriously got to buck up tis semester, got to work real hard den course transfer chances is higher... siaNz!!! MDIS i failed for 1 of the module got to retake summoRe~~ =_=

Sometimes, h0w i wisH i can leave all these behind~~ being carefree g0 f0r a long holidae, do things tat i never did... I'm fatanising haha~~ bish wakey!!! Reality is always cruel~~~ The older we are the m0re things & trouble we'll be facing

sometimes, i'm thinking tat do i lives for my own or for sumone else... We did so much in lives in the end we'll face e process of death... its so meaningless~~

alot of times, i'm kinda disppointed with my surronding gals fren... As they dun balancing frenshiP & relationship... they intend to forget frenz once they haf bf... They look more like slaves to mE... LisTen to watever bullshiT command to their bf... they lost their freedom & everything not even going out wif a female frenz... wat these all abt~ i dun noe~ but my surronding close fren r like these~~

so funni, in fact all my close & true frenz are guys... its always lots of laughters & no worry of hypocrites or jealousy~ pure frenshipz tats shud be =)

uhm... its 12:37am gonna get enough zZz for tml less0n (=_=)

BeE & DeE 8...

2004-09-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

Jus back from supper, i meet weikok to c0llect stuffs tat he brought fr shanghai. His mission was fail as i wanted him to get me chivas, cigarettes, hugo intense however he got a bottle of chivas, handbag & wallet for mE... kinda sad he didnt manage to get mi tat frangrance keke~

Anyway, i don't have enough $$$ to pay him right now as last sun i had met the "SUAIEST" day in my life... my $500 jus flew away not because wat i mention tat before that my 4D strike didnt buy... This time is doreen strike but my dad & i got to pay her... interesting rite? tis is wat happenning... she asked mi to help her buy & i asked my dad to help mi buy through phone but my dad got 1 out of 7 numbers wrongly & so unluckily that wrong number strike!!!

At 1st, she told mE she strike & i dun believe her words cuz she everytime told mi she strike & i ignore her... after tat i realised it was true but i never imagine tat my dad bought the wrong number... however, my dad pushes the fault to mi cuz he said i'm the 1 who said the wrong number butz i remember i said the right number

After all arguement, my dad willingly to pay up only 1/2 of the prize $$ which is $1000 he paid $500... my dad didnt know tat i actualli fork out another $500 to pay up my freN... I know i shudn't haf gif tat $500 to my fren but i jus feel not right i tink i shud be responsible for it...

The worst is doreen actually told mi the strike number was her fren not her after i told her i didnt bought the right number... i tot of she'll see as our fren she would let me pay lesser to her & i didnt aspect she would say something like these... I dun0 how true it is but its a saddest thing when ur closest fren lie to u becuz of money & didnt think of my circumstance... her so called fren who had won asked his husband to called mi up & yelled at me saying "i heard tat ur 4D strike onli take back 1/2" i heard tis my blood boils~ fuking attitude & i didn't say i'm not paying her back~ i dun understand wats the need of it~ of coz i lose my temper & shouted him back but as soOn as i finish my sentence i broke into tears! how useless i am to shred at tis momment. i shud haf hold back e tears tats embrasssing, & i remember beE's family heard my conversation also... tats kinda of uurgh!!! spoil my image tat asshole jerk~

the rest of my month is going to be miserable i haf to spend really wisely I'M BROKE!!!!

BeE & DeE 7...

2004-09-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

Tis m0rning bef0re beE out to camp, he told mE eddiE sending him to camp which he dun hold a riding license. I told him its wouldn't be safe maybe riding alone is still safe but not with another ppl... I guess my mouth's fouled, tis evening he told mi they caught an accident though he got small injured but its dangerous on the busy road threw out of bike... can't imagine the pain beE's butt g0t hurt haha sorrie but serve u right always don't lisTen 2 my words bleahz =b told u i super contam ppl ride bike le~~ after tis incident, dun tink of learning bike hor i super against it =b

Jus came home fr w0rk... Its been s0me time haf not been returning h0me~~~ This wh0le week i've been staying beE place.... But everytime i return h0me, my grandma already turn in le, my dad as usual out wit tat bitch till late nite & my br0 make n0 differenT whether he's at h0me anoT... my home dun feel like a "home" after my mum left us, there isn't a gather on dining table... i always wanted t0 acc my grandma m0re often but sometimes i just cant tok wit her~~

all of sudden, I miss my mum badly... Been so emotional today, everytime i see mum & daughter walking in to my workplace, seeing h0w close they are, i'll start missing my mum... i missed every of the moment, i always hold back my tears & to be strong seeing moment like these... I'm envious people who still haf mum around, as i believe all mum are the greatest on earth. Though my mum left this cruel world but she 'll always live in my heart.

BeE & DeE 7

2004-09-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

a loOong day... i'm @ beE hse passing time till 6pm den go work~~ butz its seem to be an long day... Now i'm having my dinner while posting blog keke~

tis afternoon i called up kose for interview... Budden i'm still wondering shud i start w0rk s0 soOn.. thinking of taking a long break, finish my MDIS course, learn driving license... another BUT no work no income hahaax

last nite, i @@ the 4D results found out 3352 my most frequently buying number was on starter $500 gone like these... sigh sigh sigh~~ Tis the number, before my mum death keep emphasize on buying~~ onli tis week didnt buy its strike no luck mem!!! Try to bet bigger next time hopefulli let mi tio 1st prize keke

2 more days, my class chalet kinda vex duno to overnite anot... if i overnite beE not gonnA approve permisSion nah... He always tink gals going 2 chalet will be eaten up coz his bunch of frenz all r bastard~~ hahaaha mine not okie =b probably mi going for BBQ nite nia... i'm off here going for work le~

BeE & DeE 6...

2004-09-19T17:44:00.000+08:00

BeE & mE had a tiff againz... yest after w0rk we suppose 2 watch moviE but before the movIe i've been sitting beside him seeing him playing RYL 3hrs... I thought we could spend more time on weekend since weekdays we dun haf enough time acc each other... after the movie, he wanted to g0 fondre in the end we went h0me... I was finally contented tat he choose to pei mi... As soOn as he reached home guess what? RYL!!!( damn the m'sia game creator) seeing him again playing for almost 4hrs... 0f coz i make a big fuss abt it... He als0 cant stand mi & explodE... he said i'm being unreasonable, i just wanted him to acc me alittle m0re izit tat to0 much??? I dun0e... he make mi fall fr0m his bed & my arm was cut~ & gif mi silent treatment~~ If he think i deserve this way well, i got nothing to say... the veri next morning, i waS worry tat he might continue to ignore mE.. i didnt g0 for work as a excuse i was sicked infact i realli fall sick the day before keke~ We were somE h0w back to n0rmal ^_^ but what another nightmare, he still play his gaMe continously, he realli drive m3 to extreme crazy!!! shud i said i'm over-reacted or what... if he was on my shoe i bet he lagi m0re ki sia0... I've alreadi try my best being patient le... pls maKe mi understanD u zhu tou!!!!!!

BeE & DeE 5...

2004-09-13T10:15:00.000+08:00

Holiday holiday~~ 2 more days to go... hehex todae guess its suppose to be last day for my class bahx~ kinda sad being apart soon hahax~ i'll be Mizzing the moment we've been de~ =b wed mi going jb wit wei kok shopping spree can't wait till tat day...

Last nite after fondre beE quarrel wit mi becoz of tat zhiwan telling him abt wholivesnearyou.com he's kao wei of mi haf a acc hahax he's look cute when he's angry though mi kinda scarE nah...

I've make up my mind of quitting my job by end of sept, tiring of facing my in-charge do things forever slow & always pushing blame to others de... damnit Thinking of worki ng in cosmetic line back... more relaxing hehex

2004-09-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

The 1st pIx taken from my N7610... The resolution so clear even facE got Pimple oso caN be seeN hehex

BeE & DeE 4...

2004-09-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

SurpriSe~~~ Its mE... kaka kinda lazi to blog these few days... =b getting to relac liaox i've been 2 days didnt go sch & i miss my test today =_= I'm getting slacker partly i'm in the holiday mooD NOW hahax... my classmates also starting clearing their leaves liaox~ sad case for mE i've used up all of my leaves... Now can onli "envious" them nia~ =( Later i'm catching ANACONDAS hehex finalli screening in cinema le.. i'll be uploading some of pix in my blog soOn u guys catch up ya kekex

2004-08-25T17:42:00.000+08:00

Girls' English

Yes = No

No = Yes

May-b = No

"It's your decision" = The correct decision should be obvious by now!

" Do what u want" = You'll pay 4 this later!

We need to talk" = I need to bitch.

"Sure......Go ahead" = I don't want you too.

" I'm not upset" = Of course I'm upset, u stupid moron!

" How much do u love me?" = I did something today your not goin' like me 4.

"Is my butt fat?" = Tell me i'm beautiful.

" You have to learn to communicate!" = Just agree with me.

" Are you listening to me?" = Too late, you're dead!

Guy's English

" I'm hungry" = I'm hungry

" I'm sleepy" = I'm sleepy

" I'm tired " - I'm tired

" Do you want to go to a movie?" = I'd eventaully like to have sex with you.

" Can I take you to dinner?" = I'd eventaully like to have sex with you.

" Can I call you sometime?" = I'd eventaully like to have sex with you.

" May I have this dance?" = I'd eventaully like to have sex with you.

"Nice dress" = Nice cleavage.

" You look tensed, let me give you a massage" = I want to fondle you.

" What's wrong? " = What meaningless self inflicted pshychological trauma are you going through now?

" What's wrong?" = I guess sex tonight is out of the question.

"I'm bored" = Do you want to have sex?

" I love you" = Let's have sex right now.

" I love you too" = Okay i said it we'd better have sex now!

" Let's talk" = I am tryin' to impress you by shown that I'm a deep person and maybe then you'd like to have sex with me!

" Will you marry me?" = I want to make it illegel 4 you to have sex with other guys.

BeE & DeE 3...

2004-08-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

Finally bought N7610... so excited keke~ but i drop it twice liaox =| I bought it @ $898/- kinda X hor but i like iT s0 much didnt bother abt the prICe hahax... I haf been patching wif beE for 6days liaOo... I still can't get enough speNding t|me together wit hiM... s|cK of WorK nah =| Jus wan to rot by his sidE liKes there's nobody world keke~

BeE making his effort to pei mi as much as he coUld but i guesS tis is jus starting nIa few more mths he'll be back to square again... hur hur Prove mi wrong lah... I realli hates suMmer seasOn every year of summer he auto will break off wit mE duno y.,.. izit weather too warm easily hot tempered hahax hopefulli next year & rest of the yeaR it'll be a f|ne summEr =b

2004-08-16T10:14:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow~~ i found tis link of blogger & i adore her FouL MouTh hahax indeed my idOl must learn fr her~~ CheCk tiS link ouT i'm sUre u'll haf a fun tiMe reading it!

BeE & DeE 1...

2004-08-14T20:11:00.000+08:00

Jus back from woRk... but lame loh my in-charge treating all staff for supper later on @ jurong East some more says compulsory... liewz after supper sure tio mid-nite charge 1... Talk abt the sweEteSt thingz... keke last nitE me & beE patch~~ dun0 consideR mah haha buT Tis timE i can't afforD to lose him 1 morE tIme... The days w/o beE was like miSsing Part oF me... He stiLL remembeR i tOld him my idea being engaged is 23yrs old but he told him he can't... What i want & cherish is for n0w as long as be with H|m i can giVe up anything & everything ^_^

2004-08-13T11:32:00.000+08:00

ISnt It CoOl i likeS heR Hair Color... Tinking of changing le keke~ where's the $$$

LosT LoVE 20

2004-08-13T11:08:00.000+08:00

WoHoOo... I'm meEting BeE this evening after my eXam~~ S0 exciTed ab0ut It... hehex HopE i found my suNshne ^_^ Later going t0wn for lunch tinking of eating pastA sluUrp~ =b Hun ga ry mem~~ i stiLL haf 2 chap haven complete studying hopefulli everything shun shun... Wish mE aLL tHe BesT yah~

LoSt LoVE 19

2004-08-10T17:36:00.000+08:00

I'm @ mac waiting to work @6pm... s0 shag neh~~ so sleepy miz my hiPpO & bed hehe~ My hipPo acc me every night into zZz... get to use to hug it if not hard 2 get into zZz... Went to redhill hawker wif chris, darrell, rudy & justin for lunch~~ We passby pasar malam & bought 2kg of longans... we ate @ rp luckily my sch still new lesser students walking ard ar bo look funni lor eating 1 big pkt of longans... hmm... im damn bOoOOre got to get back to work its 5.42pm i shall end now else i'll be late ciaoz ^_^

LoSt LoVE 18

2004-08-09T15:46:00.000+08:00

Wonderful daY.... i slept till 3pm+ den wakey.... so long didnt zZz so well le... keke last nite 4am + den reach home~ supposed going for rounding at orchard too many tp end up slacking @ marina south playing billard~~ as usual i sat 1 corner see them play.... i jus dun haf the tian fen learning & not interested~ remember bee taught mi once he almost vomit blood haha~~ er... trying veri hard to study for my exam but still cant leh still stuck on monitor screen hehex... chamz surely failed for tis module liao haiz~

LosT LoVE 17

2004-08-05T14:06:00.000+08:00

As usual, i went for lunch with the classmates to zion road hawker centre for lunch... Tis morn|ng i woke up saw beE msg me telling me he miss me but life haf to go on... i dun get it~ we both stiLL haf feeling for each other but why are we aparting... I duno wat r we waiting for oso... =| BeE...i misS yoU too

LoST |oVE 16

2004-08-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

New loOk for my b|og & my hairstyle coOl ritE?? but not my hairstyle lah.... look so old with this hairstyle h0r... some comment look better than rebonding some says like auntie.... =| wateVer wat is done alreadi done~ keke S0 long didnt write my dairy guess abt 1week bah... getting busier on work, sch & lazier for other thingz hehex... I Jus went to beE hsE oPP market for lunch wit classmates... 2mths didnt go there change so much... Safra so fast completed building... s0 huai lian theRe... =| later will be going to kbox wit christina celebrating her birthdae... not realli consider celebrating coz onli we 2... jus haf the uRge of singing must sing till speaker explode den can... hahax JaY chou songs roCkz "qi li xiang" i haf exam on 13th aug, fri still haven't study for it... must try 2 prevent going out these 2 weeks bi kuan xiu lian hur hur~~ loOking forward to meEt beE said wanted to meet mE end up zZzz "pig head"

LoSt |oVE 15

2004-07-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

Been some times didnt update my blog le... getting slacker keke~ tml skipping lesson hur hur i guess almost 1/2 of the class wont be going cuz the facillitator sux big time haha... tml meeting them @ bugis for movies instead~~ my class s0 steady sia all pon ten haha~ buying N7610 soOn but doreen still haven return me Hp... unable to buy yet~ s0 eager to get it! s0 tired & sleepy but haf to waiT till my hair dry up den can go bed else sick agaIn~~ here i'm coming my sweetest bed ^_^

|oST |oVe 14

2004-07-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

Jus came back fr SNEC... The doc asked me to go back for Eye test as he claimed that i got little squint Shit~~ when did i have it mem i guess i was irritated by the strong light keep flashing into my eyes during test~~ better noT its ugly!!! =_=

Tot of meeting beE up after checkup, in the end he suggest of meeting next time... it is always next tiMe duN0 wheN wiLL iT be the actUaL tiMe... hehe s0metimes i tink i'm too undecisive over hiM... I told myself to let g0 buT stiLL FJ (fan jian) haha Jus cant kck hiM oUtz of my mnD unless there's a better guy around~ BuT i dun tinK i can easily forget bah as its my 1st luv & someone whom spent the m0ST tme wiTh when i'm high or l0w afterall~~

n Msn he wrote his message as "The devil in me have surfaced again" yeaH indeed it surfaced again tell me its jus a mood swing & not LuV swing =b Perhaps i have seem his gentle sides of him & understand him too weLL i n0e oneday he shall return & be back together... kaka I'm too confident of myself shitz Its jus an daydreaming nah~~ ^_^ perhaps i'm not the right 1 for hIm & he's in search of his own sunshine... Watever it is I need t0 be LoOOooOVe!!!!!

|oST |oVE 13

2004-07-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

Been zZz for 20hrs+... loO0ng time didnt haf sucH a good zZz & lost few kgs... all thankz to this migriane~ i hate it making spin & spin all dayz... tis 20th got to go for SNEC eye checkup... s0 boring dun0 whu can i drag along to acc me... Everydae seem s0 meaningless to mE i neEd to find my motivation, my gOaL!!! heRe I C0Me.... mY bEd MuaCkz =b

|osT |oVE 12

2004-07-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

Fall sck finally... i got migrane even vomit~ dunoe wat causes tat oso.... its keep screwing my head feel like ther's a hole now... arrgh~~ hopefulli jus for tis time~~ loOng term migrane i'll go crazZy... I Miss my night class tonite tis the 2nd time i miss it shit & the worst thing is tat my exam is ard the corner nah... *_* But tis sickness given me a chance to have a break reSt @ home tml dun need workx hehex... buUt i jus can't take it anymore fUk It!!!!!!

2004-07-16T12:18:00.000+08:00

|aST piEcE any0ne???

2004-07-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

Pix taken yest dining @ pizza hutz the fo0d was great but the services was suXx... 14 of classmates @ theRe... u ate till *_*

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2004-07-15T01:28:00.000+08:00

Just came back fr Ktv wit doreen & her bf, lin li & her bf... yeah me all alonE kind of extra huh... feeling lonely sometimes when i need someone to lean on... haiz~ But its better with no one than with the wrong one.. so i shall wait till the right one come along... ^_^ i do enjoy tonitezZz sang until almost lost my voice kaka~ onli if he's there it would be a perfect nitez yeah "onli if" =b

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2004-07-14T01:21:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from supper wif wei kok @ cavana... A culprit of causing me fatter as he always jio me eat supPer mem~ hehEx~ s0 siCk of going 2 sch... guess tml i'm skipping class then i can go salon trim my hair~ After my exam, think me wan to learn driving, i passed my basic theory last yr duno got expiry date anot.. if haf got to retake againz haiz~ my eyes is shutting soOn continue tml nehz.. =b

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2004-07-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

8hrs m0re my UT test starts hopefulli i wont be late~ s0 losT dun0 wat 2 study oso~ I went to one-stop centre to ask for transferring of course fr SIT to Business comm... they told me next yr den can apply... wat the hell mem... got to wait for s0o long~ sometimes feel like dropping sch~ My lifes in rp getting suxer & suxer... damn it esp the PBL system arrgh!!! Wondering when "Anacondas" will be screening watch the thriller seem to be Veri fantanstic moViE... Mustn't Miss it hehex

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2004-07-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

|asT niTe didnt updaTe blog worx to0 tire after reaching home from a sUpeR laAmEEe sh0w "undead" all the bloody effect bloods splashing here & there~ middle of the sh0w i doze off haha~ guess im too tire after work & supper some more watch midnite show ma eh ta han... LasT nite had my supper @ cavana cwp~ i likes the atmosphere damn relac therE... next time no elsewhere go can chill outz there~ hehex

I must kick off tis habit keep buying clothes mem... i cant help it oso kaka~ my wardrode like exploding soOn... m0st of them neber wear it osO...

nothing much as UsuaL u're always 0n my m|nD ^_^
NitEz im ofF to zZzz...

2004-07-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

NokIa 7610... $800+ mem... duN0 whEn Can saVe taT $$ to Get tat~ =|

2004-07-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

IsNt't it coOl? i like the wHiTE & p|nk~

2004-07-10T16:25:00.000+08:00

mY FaV stuFF in MiNd r|tE now~~ hehex

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2004-07-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

It's a w0ndeRfuL eVeNinG~~ Quite a long time never gather with jennifer & wei k0k le... met them at bug|s sh0p heRe & thErE... wE 3 toOk Ne0printz woRx but shoRt of timE didnt manage to design another 2 picx... We walked out of mosburger & u noe wat? i @@ bee~ i didnt feel any surprise at all before that i haf an instinct that i'll might bum into him in the streetz... we & didn't talk, my smile to him & his wave 2 me haf meant lots to us i guesS... maYbe i Tink toO muCh kaka~ wEi k0k comment tat we s0 "you yuaN" if we r walking slower or faster wont @@ each other... i told him oF coz if "mei yuaN' we wont be together... hahax but where is the "Feng"... =| buT we r happi wit wat we r rite now... i didnt interfer his life & im comfortable oF wat he likes to be~ yeah~ Fates will tell its aLL... =)

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2004-07-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

I feel tat someday my b0dy gonna break doWn... Everyday is s0 shagz don't even have time for zZZz... average me only zZz for 5hrs~ yawnz~~ my dark circle getting darker & darker like pandA... @_@ ReCently keep feeling pain on my stomach.. Dun0 waT hapPen osO maybe dying soOn keke~

this afternoOn, my dad called me & passed the hp to his so called, girlfriend's daughther then i realised that we known each other... she's from my secondary school but we seldom talk in school~ n0w bo dai bo ji, we becum related siAx... wat a sMaLL sMaLL world~~

Me thinking of getting Nokia 7610... change hp againx... hehex i always can't resist to new handphone~ hope to get it within 3mths... =b i'm getting worser & worser liaOo... never haf any saVing~ I spend wat i have in bank~ todae a finacial planner stops me for sUrvey asking mE that how mUch d0 i save per mth? i stare @ him blankly... & told him i spend every single cent that i havE... haha jia lak h0r? in futUre my husband got to able to pay for all my shoPpinG biLLs eLse i'll leave in miserable life... =b

2004-07-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

BeE & DeE

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2004-07-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

I thought i could forget beE buT recently i really can't gEt him oUt of m|nd no matter wat i dId will reminds me of h|m... Its likE thE m0re days wE apaRT the m0re i m|ss him... I know i may sounds stoopiDz he leaves me jusT likE tat & i shudnt treaT him any beTTer... jusT now on my way home fr work, i shred tears thinking back & why i'm so pity don't have a guy to comfort me keke~ useless rite *_* i'm a gal who wants to be pamper alot & can't be neglect... maybe tis is s0mehow i L0sT him~~ =|

I ReaLLi can't let go so easily likE him... the past 2 yrs we spent together don't pull him baCk t0 sAve tis relationshIp... Perhaps hE's tryiNg to be sTrOng & i noE U oso sTiLL m|sS & loVes mi t0o~ Will wE sOmeday be back together again? Its all about fates~~ s0met|mes we should haf to create chances to let fates hapPen hehe~ i JusT reaLLi h0pE i caN see h|m s0meDaY even it's 5 mins i'm already contented. ^_^

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2004-07-06T13:15:00.000+08:00

i overslept & was so suai met a traffic jam at expressway though i took a taxi still reach at 9am... i shud haf took bus $19.20 gone just like dat... =| Getting so s|ck of Rp life lia0 hates the PBL system s0 muCh dun0 whose idea mem~~ Todae didnt contribute much to my team infact everyday slacking in class kaka~ but todaes topic is abt homosexual got quite few things to talk about...

Last NiTe didnt post any msg coz i reached home at 2am + was quite tired after "steamboat" wif doreen & few frenz at "Tian Tian Huo Guo" Fuk the service mem make us wait & wait we dun realli enjoy the meal all the food serves was like not up to standard~ I remember the 1st time i went wit my exbf, wei fa & christina was alrite... T|s will be my Last t|me eating there.. eeks~ After that we went to loyang pray & see ah gua but last nite we onli managed to see 1 & look horrible lo... haha~

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2004-07-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

I just eaten steamboat overloaded now... hehex my dad invited his fren over for ktv session & all stuff luckily i'm at earlier back if not i would haf bump into a crowd.. nothing mUch also... Everday repeating stuff working , studying getting boring & boring!!! i need something to spIce uP my LiFe... Maybe its a good thing to keep myself busy so no time to think of unhappy stuffs... =b Getting sick of my hairstyle, tinking to curl or change to lighter hair color hehe~ a brand new me yeah~

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2004-07-04T01:45:00.000+08:00

Wat a loOong day... woke up from my beauty zZz from my incharge last min ask mi work for 10am till 10pm. 1st day d0 cashier undercharge $0.80 but quite fun haha...

I WenT for sUpper after work wit my sister, jun xiong a guy whose aTTiTuDe liKe Ga| cant stand him sometimes... We ate almost $12 but didnt pay a single cent tat staller didnt collect $$$ fr us eating Pa Wang Chan ^_^ n0w Can't get int0 zZz oso FAT!!! =_= ToDay hp kinda quiet n0 much ppl ask me outz guess been rejecting ppl too many time till they sianz of calling me... haha

Downloading MTV now want to bring to work tml... i just stand nicholas playing the same old westlife songs... been hearing from the 1st day of work till now 2mths... Tis guy always crack lots of lame jokes at work always gay talk with me, teach me h0w to @@ gay & all stuff lolx Even today he was consipated oso told him the process he's in toilet buai ta han him... My incharge oso wanted to buy the same watch as me hUr HuR hopefulli can get a better diScount raTe if buy 3 pcs... =) i jus |oVe O.D.M watch s0 much cant wait tiLL my pay Day~~

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2004-07-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

HmMm... 1st posting Wat shud i write about... My beloved gUy?? BeE... yeah HurTs Me thE m0sT YeT i LuVe h|m m0st... 0ur 788 days of relatioNsh|p eNded & h0w could we break jUst like this... he's a guy wh0 ask for nothing but freed0m freEdom & freEdom.

I have already used to have h|m in My L|fE sometimEs i would forgotten we break off & call him & msg him like i normalli do... He d|dnt leAve a single word said wherE hE was during the m|ssing day... make mi search high & low 4 him & he hates that... i nevEr Tink s0 much tat t|me coZ iN mY m|nd im w0rry s0 much...

I've just read msg fr him, i duno if he still have any feeling foR mE & p0ssibilties for us to be together again... but whenever i got his msg i'll like jumping up & down ^_^ TiS guY always ban mE fr g0ing m'sia de but i always go against him kaka... Really m|ss the T|me We bEen together...

wHat he left for me is the sweEt meMoriEs wE havE!!!